THE OTHER SIDE – Once a phrase with an entirely different meaning than the one it holds today. For over 20 years, “The Other Side,” was the ultimate oasis my soul longed for. It was the place where I could shrink so small, I’d disappear. It was the place where my tortured and eating disordered … Read More
Weight stigma is a huge issue in this country. And while doctors are some of the worst offenders when it comes to this problem [1], there are some treatment providers that are unknowingly falling into this trap as well. In the field of eating disorders, where we focus on creating a non-judgmental atmosphere, there has … Read More
Trauma has been linked to numerous negative health behaviors, including disordered eating and eating disorders. Trauma can include interpersonal violence such as bullying, domestic violence, social violence (wars and terrorism), natural disasters (earthquakes, fires), and chronic social stressors (poverty, racism, sexism, homophobia) [1]. In this way, marginalized identities, such as racial and ethnic minorities, women, … Read More
I can’t believe I am writing this. I am writing this for me. To help me continue to grow and love myself. I am scared and anxious. Many people do not know what I am about to write. Even my family. I am not looking for sympathy or compassion. I am afraid you may think differently of me after reading … Read More
Dear you~ If you’re reading this, you’re not alone. I’ve been there too. My journey at Montecatini began over 2 years ago. There’s a part of me that wants to share all the specifics of my eating disorder to justify that I needed treatment; however, I have learned that my illness was enough, is enough, … Read More
I have struggled with an eating disorder from the age of 5, body dysmorphia from the age of 9, and self-harm beginning at the age of 12. I have had several suicide attempts with the last attempt in June of 2015. I was diagnosed with Major Clinical Depression and received much needed treatment and care … Read More
It was the day before this post and picture above when my precious pastor, amazing mentor and sweet friend Amy hugged me tight in the Chattanooga Airport and said, “I love you. God loves you. I am so proud of you for doing this. You are braver than you know.” – it’s not often in … Read More
I consider myself a learner. I love uncovering and discovering new theories and concepts that challenge me. I love questioning authority and the systems around me. So I knew that when I went to treatment, I probably wouldn’t be the most compliant patient. The underlying concepts of recovery give us so much to question. “Recovery” … Read More
I get most of my healing through the ocean these days, but grew up in Northern Arizona and used the desert canyons and mountains as healing from a very young age. ED’s been around since I was about 10. I have a history of trauma that started really early on and I’m not sure exactly … Read More
Don’t know what to wear to the holiday gathering? Is everything uncomfortable? You’re not alone. Feeling anxiety and frustration about your family giving you the “how are you doing” look and head tilt? You’re not alone. Overcome with worry about food and calories? You’re not alone. Filling your plate and acting like everything is okay (but not even … Read More
